What is wrong with me?
I'm twenty for God's sake!! Shouldn't I by now know how to talk and deal with things? Why do I always sound/act like a little girl.. And why does everyone insist on treating me like that!!
I'm super clumsy, I stammer alot, I make a fool of myself on a daily basis, and I turn bright red on a CONSTANT basis! When I went to apply for the masters program on behalf of my sister, I pretended to be her for the first half hour, then it occured to me that I might be ruining her future because I seriously ain't a masters material, the way I looked and talked actually screamed out YOU'D BETTER NOT ACCEPT ME. I freaked out and eventually told them I wasn't her, which was weird and made me look even more stupid. I'm NOT stupid! I'm smart, pretty smart actually. "Highly intelligent" as once put. I'm multi-talented. I know I'm special. Some people I know look up to me! I'm a role model! Then why the hell I insist on covincing that I'm the opposite?
I'm angry with myself! I must change.
I need help! :(
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Ranting of the year..
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It's normal. I'm 21 years old and got feeling that I'm still a child inside. You must believe in yourself. It doesn't matter they way you talk or you look as matter as you trust yourself. Just be yourself. I recommend you to join Toastmaster Club it'll help you a lot. take care.
hey sis ,
the change starts from u , u've to take lessons in screaming and red eyes :p
you didn't ruin my future , the stupid staff in the stupid college did that !!
cheer up sis ,u r smart ,intelligent,cute and u r so sweet like a girl in 15 ;)
CO,
I do believe in myself. But.. I don't know, maybe it has something to do with confidence? This one comes and goes.
And by the way someone has recommended me to join Toastmasters. I think I'll consider it :) thanks.
Photon,
Lessons from you, master :D
LOL and thaanks I love you :*
Believe,Trust = Confidence
If I wasn't 22 years old, I would've though you were my long lost twin :P
On a serious note though, change is quite a harsh word (I don't know you in a personal level, liking you nevertheless) Improve, in the other hand, is a must.
You can only get better :)
Pardon me if I do sound a tad bit creepy :P
Hope you feel better, insh'Allah :)
8BitsOfCoffee,
No bel3aks I like what you said.. I know it's a must. I've tried over and over but nothing seems to work. *sigh*
Thanks :)))
No you don't need to change:)
Your cute just the way you are dear:)
I don't think there will be a day where we can say: "That's it, I feel grown up now." And I don't think it's healthy to have that kind of thinking. No one is fully satisfied with their current present. But the only thing you can do is to LIVE it!
Just live your day, and don't worry. The things you're searching for will come to you eventually when you're not looking.
I have the exact same question, when am I going to feel, think and act like an adult? I tend to wait for the result by each birthday I pass by, but never get the answer that I want. :D
P.S.
As the previous comments have said, it's even cuter to be the one you are by now. ;)
Rimyoleta,
Why thank you :D
Hayfa,
Well if you look at it this why, then I guess I was supposed to start my great transformation couple of years back, so by now, I'd be a fully capable, mature adult. Lol a7ss I'm getting really whiny. I should post something else now.
And thanks :)))
omg..! what did they say when u tell them your not her after pretending to be her ?lol ok sorry bes i was imagining it Oo its kida funny..bes dont worry i was like you i would asit7i to call and make appointments and always make my mom do them for me..you just have to take it one thing at a time..maybe you should start with doing Kareoke !!
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