Hind ♥

It's been only 33 hours since I arrived to our almost-vacant house and I'm having suicidal thoughts already.. I'm serious now. No I'm not. I'm just too frustrated, maybe if I weren't Muslim and knew I'd go straight to Hell and were more brave I'd seriously consider it., even though Oprah says suicide is for the cowards. Whatever. I really feel down, I feel like there's a black halo all over me..

This morning I had a quiz, came back home around noon.. I thoroughly and deeply cleaned up a small part of our too-stuffed room.. I had a little drama of my own where I found this Chanel No. 5 sample bottle somewhere in our makeup box and sprayed it on the just-cleaned-up desk (even though I don't smell, remember the anosmia thing?) anyway I stood still for a second and I SMELLED it! I smelled Mum! She's a loyal Chanel No. 5 fan since forever, and I smelled her scent. Of course when the realization hit me I was all tearing and emotional.. anyway, then I gave myself a home pedicure, did the laundry, then I watched two episodes of Gilmore Girls. Gilmore Girls is a major supply of happiness to me, no matter how awful I feel it always brightens things up somehow! And I can always relate to the Lorelais.. I love them.
Then I made gahwa 3arabi for my father before he came back from work, to make up his lack-of-proper-meals for him but apparently it was too awful to drink.. since I never drink Arabian coffee and I have no idea how to know if it tastes good or not or how to even make it right.. But it was dark brown, and on a scale of 0-10, Baba gave it a minus. Yeah, I guess it was THAT bad. I kept asking him over and over if he wants me to make him lunch tomorrow but he said he'd better just order in.

Anyway between those so interesting activities I just wandered around at the house, going from one room to another.. missing my family so terribly, even my annoying brother whom I constantly fight with.. I actually stood in front of his closet, touching his t-shirts and thobes.. his sunglasses and hair gel.. Teared up again of course.. God what is it with me and the drama?

I'm done reading Eclipse, at last.. and it made me feel even worse, did Stephanie really have to make it a sad ending? And for Jacob!!! I LOVE JACOB! Why on Earth does he have to suffer all the way? 7aram!!
Anyway as you can see I started reading How To Kill Your Husband.. Couple of pages only, but it seems promising. Promising. LOL. What?

Now our final exam is supposed to be on the 25th.. That's like one week from now.. But the emptyheaded bunch of so-called Medical students decided yesterday that we don't have enough time to study. I'm a geek when it comes to this and I SAY IT IS MORE THAN ENOUGH! For God's sake you morons!! Gaaahhh I guess you should have Y chromosome if you want to act stupid and reckless and not be blamed for it.. Seriously, it's an enough excuse.. I'm a guy, I don't have to plan in advance, why not ruin everything for everyone just when I feel like hitting the "on" button on my brain.. Great idea.. So basically we don't know when our final is.. should I start studying tomorrow? Next week? Oh, no wait, let the idiots calculate how many days they need to study for the final that we've already done studying like 90% of it and get back to us.

So.. the whole point of this charming post.. I need ideas! Things to keep me busy! Things to do when you're home alone with NO friends in town.. except for one.. and we'll have a movie day/night tomorrow! Yay! But she's not always here, so please, help your close-to-suicide sister (I laughed at "sister" internally, though my face is still grumpy looking).

If you reached this, thank you.. you're really brave, the non-suicidal kind of brave..
I hope I just made you feel better about yourself and your problems, I'm sure you're not worried about your sanity now.. Here I am, and you're perfectly sane.

:)