One Gloomy Day..

We weren't close in school.

But we invited each other to our parties, and we had one best friend in common.

7 years later, we were the only two girls from our city to be accepted in Medical school.

We stuck together, and we completed each other,

I was social, she hated talking to new people and trying to make friends,

I was weak and she was strong and confident,

I was the geek and she cursed the fate that brought her to this college..

I was too worried and she just shrugged everything off..

By the 2nd year we were inseparable at university, girls and teachers often mixed up between our names.

She's become one of my best friends and I've been miraculously added to her tiny list of the people she actually loves, i.e. her sister M, cousin D, and now me.

We have our own codes, jokes, nicknames that nobody but us understands, almost nothing of what we say makes sense to anyone..

I'd download Grey's Anatomy episodes with even numbers and she'd download the ones with odd numbers..



and our impact on each other is so obvious;

I've become a germ freak and wouldn't leave the house without my Dettol wipes or an antibacterial gel, careful not to touch some elevator buttons -God forbid- or door knobs with my hands.

She laughed all the time, at any thing, just like I did..

But she still didn't care about classes, grades or even exams.

She is a genius mashallah.. we all know that about her, but she's TOO freakin' lazy, she's always 'malha 5elg'..

We basically begged her to study, we set schedules for her, stalked her during exam days, calling and texting her 58749 times a day to make sure she was on the right track..

But she failed two courses,

and she didn't study well for the re-set exam and failed again..

She has to take the course again, which means we will be taking two classes together next year and that's all.. She will be left behind afterwards..


I hate this kind of change.

I prepared myself for this, but when it really happened, I don't know, it's so confusing..

I feel like crying yet I can't shed a tear,

but deep inside I feel like crying my heart out..

I feel sad and gloomy and depressed, although I'm acting very normal and laughing as if nothing happened,

which is really exhausting..


Now all I'm hoping that this would be her wake-up call.. ya rub..


This post is dedicated to my dear friend, even though she won't know about it..